Scarlett loved getting to wear Mama's necklace for her fall pictures today. I was happy getting to play with my camera again and I couldn't resist getting a few shots with it in. Although the phrase is adorable, the necklace itself represents so much more. This necklace symbolizes the last moment I remember being truly carefree and happy. The last moment I got the chance to worry about 'easy' things like running late, work projects, or even my hair.
Scarlett and I bought this necklace just moments before she collapsed and our world changed. As many of you know, that day was completely normal, wonderful in fact. We were enjoying lunch and shopping just the two of us downtown. We sent daddy some photos of us smiling on our walk and we stopped in a little shop after Scarlett spotted their handmade jewelry. She wanted to see this necklace so badly and once I caved, her little hands didn't want to give it back. She was so happy when I put it on and told her we would get it. She played with it in my arms as we went next door to the library and seconds later, with the help of the frightened library staff, I was carrying a limp child out. I wore that necklace to the ER and it hung around my neck when we first heard the words "tumor" and possible "cancer."
Today, I am happy to announce that our girl is once again happy and healthy. For another 3 1/2 months we can try to gain back some normalcy. Yet, I will never be able to go back to that carefree life. I have changed as a mom, wife, family member, and friend. So, I ask that you support your local Children's Hospitals, St. Jude fundraisers, and sign those petitions to increase childhood cancer and disease research funding (currently, they only receive 4%- shocking, I know). After all, you never think something like this can happen to your child. Yet, in a moment, it can. #MoreThan4